exchange

for any people who actually read this or am i jsut writing all this to myself, if i am hey cool at least im keeping hte memories for myself in the years to come.

but anyways for all of you reading this im sure you know i want to go to Japan for the year next year, on exchange, well i posted my application form (well rather dad did) on friday. and i dunno right now im kinda iffy about it all. not that im saying i dont want to go at all, i want to go now more than ever, but im scared that im not gonna get it, and that i wont get to go. the realization that what im doing next year, something that will most probebly effect the rest of my life isnt really in my own hands anymore is kinda a scary thought. and i know that God will provide me with eh path that he wants me to take, and what ever that may be i will have to accept it, but i cant believe that he has given me the burning pashion that i have for Japan and the Japanese people for nothing, i believe that he has a plan for me there, one that may not actually unfold next year, but that will require the language skills, that that im not gonna get in a classromm setting but would gain by living there.

please dont tell me im worring for nothing, i know that, i just needed to share what im feeling